i’ve had the urge to write about something since wednesday of last week. i kept wanting to write about it and want to write about but, well, never got around to writing about it. everything that i did last week and through the weekend just reaffirmed what i wanted to write about. it was like everything was lining up for me to write about this one topic. i mentioned it to bryson on saturday at the alumni event at liberty. i mentioned it to andrew earlier today when talking to him. i had it written out in my head and everything. all i needed to do was sit down and type it out. so now i’m sitting down and typing. except i’m not gonna write about that thing. see, something else came up that i can’t get out of my head. i’m still going to write about the other thing…
so fresh and so clean clean
me: man, i really hope the ranch house has toilet paper. rhody: you gonna blow it up? me: heck yeah i am. maybe that conversation is a little gross to you, but as a guy, and with it happening at 1:15 in the morning, i thought it was funny. luckily for me, the ranch house did have toilet paper. but we didn’t have soap. we haven’t had soap in the bathroom all summer long. i really don’t know why this is. i actually had never even thought about it until just now. that’s really weird. anytime that i’ve used the bathroom over here this summer, i’ve had to come back into my room and get hand sanitizer and use that because we had no soap in the bathroom. the funny thing is, not having soap in the bathroom got me thinking about jesus. this week in our small groups, i’ve…
i think way too much on a one track mind
have you ever gotten so lost in a thought that you look at the clock and it’s suddenly twenty minutes later than it was the last time you looked? that’s been me the past day or so. my brain works in a really weird way. most of you reading this are nodding your head in agreement right now. it’s true. i think of things in a different way than other people. not only that, but i can see things in my head like a movie. when i was in fifth grade, i remember my english teacher saying something about how weird it was that i would write out an entire paragraph in my head before i wrote it on the paper. i routinely went up to her and said, “hey, does this sound right?” and would just rattle off an entire paragraph. it’s one of the ways i finished my…
how could it be any better than this
growing up, back in high school (still feels weird to say that), we’d go to other schools for baseball games, band competitions, or some other reason. i remember that even before we’d leave king, we knew the schools that had the best looking girls. ledford. north davidson. surry central. we just knew. we looked forward to those trips more than others just because of that. we thought the girls at those schools looked better than the girls at our school. as high school went on, and i started meeting people from other schools through shows, sports, or whatever, i started hearing them talk about how the girls at our school were so much better looking than the ones at theirs. wait, what? are you kidding? our girls weren’t that great. the other schools were definitely better. then, somewhere around my junior year, i finally realized something. our girls were actually…
the only thing holding me back was my pride
it’s been 17 days since i’ve posted something on here. that’s insane. my bad. i’ve actually wanted to write for the past week or so, just never knew what to write about. i thought about writing about how frustrated i was with camp. i had even written out a good part of it and knew what i was going to write. then i thought about writing about how one kid came up to me on friday morning before he left camp and told me that what i had taught had helped him out a lot and how that made the frustration worth it. then yesterday happened and it all clicked. yesterday, for the first time in my life, i spoke in front of a church. i’d spoken to youth before. i’d done bible studies and devotions and all of that. i’ve always enjoyed speaking in front of people, but i…
we deserve a second chance i promise i’m not looking back
i’ve spent the last few minutes laying in bed with the lights off listening to my “jesus music” channel on pandora. generally when i do something like that, it’s because i’m not having a good night. actually, it’s normally the sign of a terrible night. that’s what i did the night that i realized i wanted to leave coastal. it’s what i did when i realized i couldn’t get over the depression of ashley and no job and that junk on my own. the thing is, tonight’s really not that bad of a night. i’ve said before that i hate holidays. i still stick by that statement. they just end up being reminders of things that i don’t like to think about. i really don’t remember a holiday that was just straight up memorable in a good way. overall, i think tonight’s one of those nights where i’m ready to…
i feel like i would like to be somewhere else doing something that matters
the title of this post says it all. that’s how i feel right now. there’s no getting around it. i spent three years and four months running from the idea of going into ministry. i didn’t want to do it. i wanted nothing to do with it really. i tried over and over and over to bargain with god so that i could do something else. nothing ever worked. finally, in late december, i asked god to change my heart. i told him i wanted to be ready to go when the time came for me to do whatever it was he wanted me to do. a month after that, i was finally ok with doing this whole ministry thing. i was apprehensive but i was ok with it. i’ve now ran into a new problem: i’m tired of waiting. i spent three years and four months doing everything but…
camp update – video style
i just wanted to post a few videos of camp from the first two weeks. hopefully i’ll be able to do this every week. enjoy. some of the best blob action you will ever see in your life an 8 foot tall bunny rabbit hardcore dancing tmi youth director trick riding on a horse rocks in your pocket (watch this one) week 2 bellyflop contest one of our youth counselors trick riding the winning skit from week 2’s galaxy games matt doing chin ups on the zip line maybe the stupidest thing anyone did in week 2
it’s me you can do without but you choose to stick it out
it’s 3:20 in the morning and i’m still working so i thought i would write something on here since it’s been a while. camp is going awesome (except for the whole still working at 3:20 in the morning part). there have been some great things that have happened here over the past two weeks. i know that life is not about me. i know that camp is not about me. i’m still human, and i’m still selfish at times, so i can’t help but sit back sometimes and just be in the awe of the impact i’ve had on people at times over the past two weeks. i wrote back on january 12th that “i wanna change the world. i don’t know how. i have absolutely no clue what it’s going to take. i just know that there will come a day in the future when i can sit back…
let your light shine in
(edit: i wrote this last night but the storm knocked our internet out so i’m just now being able to post it.) i just spent the last 45 minutes in my car sitting in the driveway next to the house i’m staying in for the summer watching what was quite possibly the best lightning storm that i’ve ever seen. the whole sky was lighting up. first i would see it light up back towards bedford, then up towards lynchburg, and then it would move to east of there. then it would just pop around and there’d be bursts of light coming from every direction. as great as it was, it wasn’t even the best “god is awesome” moment of my night. a few months back, i think it was february but i don’t remember exactly, i was standing in church at brentwood on a sunday morning. things were going good.…