(originally posted january 12, 2009)
Before I get started with this, I want to just preface it with the following. I know that some people that read this are going to think this is me being cocky or arrogant or any other word with that same definition. I know that some people are going to think I’m crazy for feeling the way that I do. I know that to some people, what I’m going to say is stupid. I know all of this.
And I don’t care.
We’re all put on this earth to do something. Kobiyashi was meant to eat hot dogs and Seth Curry was meant to drop buckets. We all have a purpose. Some of us find out earlier than others what it is. Some of us spend more time searching for it. If you read my notes regularly, you read a week or two ago where I said I’ve changed my prayer from “God, show me what my purpose is” to “God, get me ready so that I can be ready when the time comes.” Since that change, I’ve had this feeling inside of me that keeps growing and growing, and that’s what I’m going to talk about.
My entire life there’s been one consistent thing that I’ve always heard from teachers, coaches, and other people that I really respected. They either said it to me or said it to me parents. At times, it kind of ticked me off because I didn’t know what it meant. They all said that, “You’re a great kid. You’re gonna do big things.”
I never understood what that meant. Quite frankly, I still don’t know what it means. However, I have come to the realization that they were right. I was put on this planet to do something big. I was meant to do something great. I don’t know what that is. I’m still waiting for that to door to be opened. That doesn’t change the fact that I know those people were right.
I have friends that are going through college, getting a degree, and their goal is to start a business and make as much money as possible. I have other friends who want to rise up the corporate ladder and be successful in the business world. These are all great ambitions. Those have never been what my goals were. I’ve always wanted to impact people. I’ve always wanted to be an influence for people and someone that they can look up to. Money is great and all, but I’ve always gotten more out of helping someone or being a mentor to them.
Lately I’ve had Revolution by Mercy Mercedes stuck in my head. The last time a song was stuck in my head like this, it was the Underoath song that got me to transfer to Liberty. They lyrics are, “So I say we’ll catch this world on fire. We’ll start a revolution. Can’t you see it now? It will take all everyone’s attention, to leave it all behind us. Can’t you see it now?” That’s what I wanna do. I wanna change the world. I don’t know how. I have absolutely no clue what it’s going to take. I just know that there will come a day in the future when I can sit back and know that I’m doing something important that is impacting everyone around me in a positive way.
Now, don’t get me wrong, I know that I’m going to have to bust my butt to make this stuff happen. I know that doing something great is never easy. I also know that I’m willing to do whatever it takes to make it happen.
You can read this and think I’m crazy. You can read it and think I’m cocky or arrogant. That’s perfectly fine by me. I even like it a little bit. I know the truth and I’m way too stubborn to let what people think of me to stop me from doing what I know is the truth.
So, what comes next? I’m not sure really. All I know is that school starts tomorrow. This is my first semester as a full-time residential seminary student. It’s the beginning of what I expect to be one of my best semesters ever. It’s the start of a new chapter in my life. It’s the next step to doing something great. I’ve just gotta keep my head straight, keep doing the things I know I’m supposed to be doing, keep not doing the things I know I’m not supposed to be doing, and when the time is right, I’ll figure the rest out. It’s like one giant game of Marco Polo. I’ll keep yelling out “Marco” and when God’s ready, He’ll yell back “Polo” and I’ll go towards the sound. Eventually I’ll catch up and find where the voice is coming from.
Until then, say your prayers and take your vitamins.
Have a nice day.