Before we even get started today, I’m going to warn you that this post is political in nature. You probably gathered that from the title. With that said, here’s what I want you to know:

This post is meant to start a conversation.

What I’m writing today is what I’m wrestling through as a Christian in this political cycle. It’s not the end all be all “I’m an expert and you should agree with me because of these three reasons.” In truth, you may agree. You may disagree. Whatever your opinion, I think it’s vital for us to have hard conversations about important issues. I’d love to know your thoughts in the comments or on Facebook.

My name is Jonathan. I’m a 29-year-old registered independent from North Carolina currently living in Tennessee. For as long as I can remember, I have been a Christian. I wore cheesy Christian knock off tshirts as a kid, received two degrees from the world’s largest Christian university, and even spent five years working on staff at a church.

So far in my life I’ve voted in two presidential elections. This year will be my third. In one of those I voted Republican and another I voted Libertarian. This year I’m not sure who I will vote for. One of the few things I know is this:

I don’t think I can vote for Donald Trump.

I know what many of you are thinking:

Trump is less dangerous to Christians than Hillary.

A third party vote is a vote for Hillary.

Wait, you went to Liberty. Won’t Jerry Falwell revoke your degrees if you say bad things against Trump?

(Disclaimer: that last one was a joke. I don’t need Jerry’s kids to argue with me on Facebook.)

I get what you’re saying and I hear you. I really, really do.

But I just don’t think I can do it.

Endorsing Trump for president will be endorsing many things I fundamentally disagree with. I don’t know that I can endorse those things with a clear conscience.

For me, it comes down to a simple either/or question. Am I going to trust in God’s sovereignty [that he can accomplish his will no matter what] or am I going to trust in the American political system?

For centuries, God has accomplished his mission despite corrupt kings, hostility towards his people, and all the things we think will happen under a Hillary administration. He has done that by using people who put their faith and trust in him above all else. He didn’t need churches to have tax exemptions or governments to protect what he cared about. He used faithful people willing to fight for the things close to his heart.

For many, there’s a feeling we have to preserve the freedom to continue being Christians the way we’ve always been Christians. We have this idea in our heads that the Gospel is supposed to be accepted and protected at all costs.

But what if we stopped trying to protect our cushy American church culture and instead trusted in the power of the Gospel?

What could our country (and world) look like if we had a nation of Christians who put the Gospel of Jesus above the Gospel of America?

Personally, with the way our culture is changing around us at such a fast pace, the thought of four more years (and more if you count Supreme Court nominees) of ultra-liberal social policy is terrifying. I don’t know what type of world my daughter and unborn baby will have to grow up in. It’s scary to think about the ramifications of a Hillary presidency when looked at through those lenses.

I get why so many Christians want to make sure it doesn’t happen.

I really do.

I just can’t do it.

I can’t let fear keep me from doing the things God has put on my heart.

I can’t let my comfort level push me into not only accepting but also endorsing things I strongly disagree with.

And that’s why I can’t vote for Donald Trump. I don’t know who I’m going to vote for, but I know I can’t vote for him. I understand why some Christian leaders have come out in favor of him, I just can’t get behind their reasoning.

So those are my thoughts.

What are yours?

Let us know in the comments below or on Facebook.

Say your prayers and take your vitamins.

Have a nice day.

-Jonathan